Been practicing on finding lightness on the mat and in my life for as long as I can remember, especially for the latter. Lightness on the mat means I need to get in touch with my bandhas more. Lightness in my life is the opposite, I have to let go.
When I was younger I remember that I loved collecting emotional baggage, wallowing in my own whiny world with a bottle of red or whatever bottle I can find that'll give me a temporary buzz and an interim amnesia. Being an "emo" made me look mature and cool - or so I thought.
Getting in touch with my uddiyana bandha as I practice jumping back. As you can see my gut is still hanging-heehee!
The more I let go, the lighter I feel.
The happier I become.
Joy.
The quiet, light feeling that I had before jumping out of the plane was unfathomable.
In my yoga journey, I tend to get frustrated and impatient when things don't go the way I want to. Then I self doubt. Then I tighten my bandhas like a crazy woman. If there is a bandah in the mind, believe me I've tightened that one too until the circulation in my brain ceased.
Then I stop practicing.
Lately though I've learned to love myself and others more. Then the joy returned. I applied it in my life and brought it on the mat with me.
Lightness followed.
It's not easy being a good person. Not easy to be a devoted, hardcore yogi.
I'm trying everyday.
Bringing joy to both my life and my yoga journey sure does make it easier, lighter.
Makes it easier to jump.
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